Identity Crisis
So, I'm not exactly what to do/say on this blog anymore.
Sure, my cervix is still incompetent. I found my blog listed on a secondary infertility list. And I think I've just about given up on the idea of another pregnancy (truth be told it has been months and months since we've even tried. Maybe resigned is a better way to state it). Regardless, where do I go from here, here?
I got damn lucky and had a beautiful baby boy. I hope and believe that my story can offer some hope for people in the throes of this crap. I remember too well the dark and sad days and am so glad I made it through. So I ask again, where do I go from here, here?
I could blog about my super amazing kid -- man he's funny. He's been talking in complete sentences in English and Spanish for awhile. The other night at dinner he declared, "I'm a grown up; I'd like a beer, please." Points for manners -- water because he's two.
This blog has had a definite point of view -- the view of getting pregnant and staying pregnant. And now I don't know if it should be another mommy blog. For starters there are a lot of them out there and I'm not sure I have a point of view that is interesting to anyone...even me. Plus I worry that if someone comes to find out how to get through this, posting pictures of my cute kid might not be what someone wants to get smacked in the face with. Then again, maybe there is something about this amazing kid with blond curly hair and a winning grin that could give someone hope and strength.
So, that's why my silence. If you have an opinion one way or the other, I'm all ears!
Sure, my cervix is still incompetent. I found my blog listed on a secondary infertility list. And I think I've just about given up on the idea of another pregnancy (truth be told it has been months and months since we've even tried. Maybe resigned is a better way to state it). Regardless, where do I go from here, here?
I got damn lucky and had a beautiful baby boy. I hope and believe that my story can offer some hope for people in the throes of this crap. I remember too well the dark and sad days and am so glad I made it through. So I ask again, where do I go from here, here?
I could blog about my super amazing kid -- man he's funny. He's been talking in complete sentences in English and Spanish for awhile. The other night at dinner he declared, "I'm a grown up; I'd like a beer, please." Points for manners -- water because he's two.
This blog has had a definite point of view -- the view of getting pregnant and staying pregnant. And now I don't know if it should be another mommy blog. For starters there are a lot of them out there and I'm not sure I have a point of view that is interesting to anyone...even me. Plus I worry that if someone comes to find out how to get through this, posting pictures of my cute kid might not be what someone wants to get smacked in the face with. Then again, maybe there is something about this amazing kid with blond curly hair and a winning grin that could give someone hope and strength.
So, that's why my silence. If you have an opinion one way or the other, I'm all ears!
posted by Sarah at
11:15 PM
2 Comments:
I am glad to hear from you regardless what you blog about. I can't remember how I found your blog initially, but we both have screwed up cervixes and that's our common bond. I think seeing your beautiful curly headed blond with the most amazing lashes little boy does give me hope, but I see how newcomers could get turned off.
I don't care what you write about, I'd love to read it if you decided to start another blog. I completely understand the absence from this one, I just wonder how you are sometimes and I don't know any other way to contact you other than this blog. I'm sorry to hear that you aren't trying anymore, but you are so blessed to have that little man in your life.
Many blessings to you and your family and thank you for writing, Monica
still hopeful dot monica at yahoo dot com - email me if you like.
I miss hearing from you - would love to hear about your kid, your life, your hopes, your dreams... honestly - just love your writing.
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