An annual check in

Feeling more and more like writing lately. Not sure exactly about what -- but feel the need to write.

Life under my roof is great. Spencer turns four at the end of August. What a great gift he's been. Hilarious little boy who continues to beg for a baby sister. Sorry little man, we gave our best shot!

Around me things seem to be much more complicated. I think the economy has created an underlying tension that is managing to seep into everything. Our best friend couple are splitting up. There's crazy drama with my uncles in settling my grandmother's estate. We recently had a car accident that totaled our car and the next day my work announced an 8% cut and furlough. Last week we went to the beach for a picnic and a helicopter crashed into the sand about 100 yards from us. Seems to be a very surreal space I'm inhabiting.

I look back at all I covered in the blog and sometimes I feel like my story is such old news and that I should take the blog down -- just when I think that I get an e-mail from a mom who recently had a late loss. I know that after my first loss I so longed for answers, for hope. I'm just glad I can share my journey and offer a glimmer of hope. Keeping my fingers crossed for all of you.