Another?

How do you decide if you want baby number two?

I adore being a momma, Spencer is a wonderful baby who aside from not being a great sleeper is very easy. Juggling work and home has its challenges but the bottom line is, I'm happy. Blissfully happy. And I wonder about upsetting the apple cart.

Of course it may be a moot point since it was such a difficult journey to have him. I don't know who I'm kidding pondering 'do I want another' as though it was as easy as just making a decision. But divorcing myself from reality, I'm just not sure.

I always thought I'd have two kids. Recently we were out to breakfast and watched an older couple dote on their 10-year-old kid. They were so indulgent and I can only imagine that the kid was an absolute brat. I leaned over to my husband and said we should really have another so we don't ruin Spencer. But surely you can have an only child and not become overly indulgent, can't you?

I'm on the eve of turning 40, I have an appointment with my ob-gyn next week and I know she'll ask what my plans are. Realistically I don't have the luxury of time. If I want to go down this path, I need to get started.

But how do you know?

Feeling anxious

There is a lot going on and more than anything I think writing would be cathartic -- but I can't seem to find the time.

The baby is great -- almost nine months and I don't have any legitimate complaints, just have been feeling overwhelmed. We bought a new house and are trying to sell our current one. We had two offers that we countered over the weekend and I think they are both gone (one was flaky to begin with and the other wanted the close of her current property as a contingent). So, back to square one.

Work is way too busy for my liking, we feel like guests in our own home since we have to keep it spotless for showing and I can't find anything! Oh, and we're about to own two houses in one of the most expensive housing markets in the country.