Happy Easter from Spencer!

Identity Crisis

So, I'm not exactly what to do/say on this blog anymore.

Sure, my cervix is still incompetent. I found my blog listed on a secondary infertility list. And I think I've just about given up on the idea of another pregnancy (truth be told it has been months and months since we've even tried. Maybe resigned is a better way to state it). Regardless, where do I go from here, here?

I got damn lucky and had a beautiful baby boy. I hope and believe that my story can offer some hope for people in the throes of this crap. I remember too well the dark and sad days and am so glad I made it through. So I ask again, where do I go from here, here?

I could blog about my super amazing kid -- man he's funny. He's been talking in complete sentences in English and Spanish for awhile. The other night at dinner he declared, "I'm a grown up; I'd like a beer, please." Points for manners -- water because he's two.

This blog has had a definite point of view -- the view of getting pregnant and staying pregnant. And now I don't know if it should be another mommy blog. For starters there are a lot of them out there and I'm not sure I have a point of view that is interesting to anyone...even me. Plus I worry that if someone comes to find out how to get through this, posting pictures of my cute kid might not be what someone wants to get smacked in the face with. Then again, maybe there is something about this amazing kid with blond curly hair and a winning grin that could give someone hope and strength.

So, that's why my silence. If you have an opinion one way or the other, I'm all ears!